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Succes is built with experiences

► Saturday, January 28, 2012 | 8:48 PM

Yes, I've been rather busy lately.
Did anyone miss my presence? (o^^o)
I shall do a boring update on what has been going on with my life.

1. It is CNY period.
I've been getting red packets. ＼(^o^)／

2. I've gotten a few email pals! There are two from Japan! Only one replied more frequently though. Anyway, I've been learning Japanese from my E-pal while she learns English from me. I'm always very excited when I receive an e-mail from her. :D

The rest is really boring so no point mentioning here. I don't want to bore myself.

Anyway, today I had a CNY celebration and I was one of the three organisers for it. Well, it's more like it's just me. The other two didn't really put in much. Last minute work never succeed, I must say. It was such a mess today. (T_T) Sigh. It's okay, I shall gain experiences through this and maybe plan a more successful one next time.

Okay, more parties. Peace out for now. (o^^o)

3.

The end

► 7:45 PM

Black packed the letters into a box as she reminisced about the times she had with White.
Sometimes she wondered if the person she had been was who she is deep inside.

"I miss her." She mumbled as she shut the box and put it aside.

Many were surprised whenever Black said that she and her dearest friend have not met for months. It's not that she didn't want to, or maybe it is.

White was a really nice girl and a really awesome friend to Black. She was there when Black was down, there to make sure that Black was okay when she was stressed, there to pray for Black. Black had thought that White was an angel sent from heaven and she hated herself for not being able to be as wonderful to White.

Since White was so perfect, what had made Black drift further away then?

Respect.
Respecting people's faith.
White had lacked that.

Black and White have different beliefs, different faiths. Black felt that it never matters what race or religion her friends are. That should not ever be an obstacle when she make friends. However, that should never be a reason for her to make friends either.

She was taken aback when White first told her that the posts Black had on her blog was pretty depressing and that Black needed a light in her life. That was why White started to approach Black, hoping that she would be able to have spiritual guidance so that Black could be happier.
Much as Black hated to admit, she had approached White with an intention too do she could not bring herself to dislike her friend just because of what she said. However, it was what happened much later that cause Black to feel slightly disappointed.

Whenever there was a chance, White would try to convince Black to join her and to believe what she does. Black would always stay quiet during those moments and it never failed to make White questioned why her friend who was always so chatty would clam up whenever she was alone with White.

In any kind of relationship, respect is the most important element. Black lives by that motto and she hated how White had no respect at all towards Black's beliefs and she did not even respect the beliefs of Black's parents. Black felt so disappointed and suffocated with how White would constantly try to talk to Black about it that she began to drift away. She was kind of sick of her friendship with White. "If the basic respect is gone, what's the point of being friends?" Black once said to her mother. However, White was so precious to Black that she couldn't bear to let it all go.

It has been a year or so since Black last met White. She misses her a lot but she knows that her friendship with White will never be the same ever again.

Yup, the end.

Happy Chinese New Year

► Monday, January 23, 2012 | 12:05 AM

Here's wishing all readers, whoever you are, wherever you are, a Happy Chinese New Year.
or to those who doesn't celebrate CNY, Happy Holidays.

Since I didn't really make a new year resolution for 2012, I shall do that for CNY instead.

Dragon Year, 2012 New Year Resolutions (drum roll)

1. Help out more at home.
2. Try not to fight with sis so much
3. Lose 10 kg or more before I go to uni
4. Improve my english
5. Improve my chinese
6. Learn to read and converse in Japanese.
7. Improve my drumming skills
8. Improve my piano skills.
9. Help out with my religion related stuffs more.
10. Improve my drawing skills

Yup.
For those who wonder what my religion is.
Here's a link for you to know more about it. Click here

Busy Busy. I should log off for now.
Until next time!

Idol groups, bands and what's not

► Saturday, January 21, 2012 | 5:50 PM

I realised that other than the songs and dramas and pvs of HSJ/NYC boys
What I really like to see are actually lives behind the scenes.
Maybe that's why I like to see the makings of pvs as well as those behind the scenes videos so much more.
It feels more real. (Although it might not be 100%)
I just want to know that they too live a life like ours excluding the extra stardom-ness.

Oh well. It's just a random thought.

Filial Piety

► 12:57 PM

"Filial piety is the root of virtue and the source of civilisation." - Confucius
Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/2119747

Taking a break from "Black and White", I've decided to post something that had caught my attention yesterday.

Filial Piety is something that had been instilled into my sis and I when we were really young. It's a given for us to respect our parents, to love them as well as to not cause any worries for them. Of course, there are times when we as children disobey our parents or cause them to worry. However, we are never ever allowed to talk back and needless to say, we should never ever shout or even hit our parents.

Sometimes, I think that I'm really naive to have the impression that all the people in the world do follow the same values as us. The world is not so ideal after all. Society is always really ugly once you observe long enough. What had triggered me to make this post, you might wonder. Well, I'll tell you if you're interested to know.

However, before that, I have to side track for a while.

I have a neighbour who lives a floor above us with her daughter. She's really old and it seems that old age is catching up with her. Sometimes, my family and I will hear knocks on the ceiling, coming from the floor above, early in the morning. Sometimes, I will hear weird noises in the middle of the night. These noises do get on our nerves but my parents see no need to complain since she's old. "You can't blame an old lady for doing these sort of stuffs, she does not even know what she is doing at times." My wise mother will always say. It's understandable actually. I have a grandma who is suffering from the advanced Alzheimer so we recognize that our poor neighbour is showing symptoms of early Alzheimer. It's really sad for them, my heart aches whenever I look at my frail grandma who sits on her wheelchair sucking her thumb and just looking around. It has been years since she last spoke but I'm just glad that she's still around. Okay, I'm digressing.

Anyway, let's just say that not all children are as filial as my aunt and my dad. (I'm not referring to you.)When an elderly is suffering from early Alzheimer, he/she will start to have strange behaviours. They will be demanded to be let out of the house. They will be knocking things here and there etc. My grandma used to knock her wheelchair against the gate of my house(we had to get it repainted after a while cause the paint was peeling off the gate) because she wanted to get out. We couldn't have the gate opened all the time for fear that my old grandma would leave the house without us knowing and get lost. However, whenever she started banging on the gate, we would be there to open it for her and just follow her to whenever she wanted to go. I realised yesterday that it was not a taken-for-granted thing to do.

My neighbour was knocking on the gate yesterday morning and it was so loud that it caught the neighbours' attention. My mum went up to take a look and found out that the old lady was using a knife as she tried to cut the lock of her gate. Her daughter had hidden the keys and poor old lady could not get out. Instead doing what my mother would have done, the daughter shouted at her poor mother. I winced at how badly the old lady was being treated. The poor elderly then retreated to her balcony and her actions afterwards shocked us, who are living a floor below.

She threw her trolley down.

Not to the first floor, she threw it to the floor below and it landed right outside my house. The structure of my flat is such that the balcony of the floor above is still within the flat so if one climbs down from the balcony successfully, he/she will land outside my house. (Ah, she's knocking again.) Yup.

If anyone was standing there at the point in time, that person might have died. Since no one was hurt by it, the next thing to do was to watch out for my neighbour who might have thought that it was safe to climb from her balcony. It was really really frightening, I must say. Thank goodness everything ended well with her daughter (stupid unfilial woman) letting her out of the house. My old neighbour then took her trolley and happily went to the market.

This whole incident caused me to reflect a lot. The treatment my grandma has been receiving and the treatment the poor old lady has been receiving are so different. It's well-known to people that once you hit a certain age, you'll start to suffer from Alzheimer and there's no turning back. It'll be really hard for those who are looking after you. However, you do not wish to be poorly treated, right? Well, at least I don't. This applies to my parents and your parents as well. So do give them the care, love and respect they deserve and be a filial child.

Yay for filial piety. I'm hungry so I'm logging off. Goodbye.

A child who is allowed to be disrespectful to his parents will not have true respect for anyone.
Billy Graham

My heroes are and were my parents. I can't see having anyone else as my heroes.
Michael Jordan

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✰Lesson 1: The Seven Deadly Sins✰

► Tuesday, January 17, 2012 | 11:34 PM

"Hey Black, why do you swear so much?" White asked one day.

"I don't do that a lot!" Black defended herself as she frowned at White's question.

"Well, I just don't like it. Swearing isn't good. It leaves a nasty taste in my mouth when I tried it once."

"Hey! So did you bring the game you said you wanted to?" Black asked her classmate during break-time. Her classmate nodded and took out the board game from her back. "Seven Deadly Sins" the cover read. It was a game that revolved around the seven deadly sins which are Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Acedia, Wrath, Envy, Pride and Vainglory. Many people gathered around the table and started playing. White had rejected the offer when Black invited her to join in. Such a killjoy she thought.

The game went on for quite a while and soon, it was Black's turn once again. She threw the dice, picked up a card and started reading the instructions written on it. "Say 10 different swear words in 10 seconds!" Black read the card out loud and smirked, "This should be easy."

"Ready, Go!" The girl sitting beside her turned the small hour glass over as Black began to list the words out. The rest of the class became quiet as Black showed off her "colourful" vocabulary. However, after her ninth word, Black realised that she had ran out of swear words and thus lost when the time was up. Ah, damn. I was so close. She thought as she left the table.

When she sat beside White, somehow she felt that the atmosphere seemed different. "What's the matter?" She asked. "What colourful vocabulary you have. You should brushed up on the vocabulary list you can use for schoolwork instead." White replied with a cold voice. The number of swear words Black knew was more than White had expected and she could not believe that Black was such a vulgar person. White refused to speak to Black from that moment and for the whole day, both girls did not utter a single word to each other.

For the first time in her whole life, Black felt really guilty for swearing even if it was meant for the game. She swallowed hard and made her mind to get rid of that bad habit or at least try not to say it out whenever White was present.

"I'm sorry." Black wrote on a small slip of paper and passed it to White.

"Forgiven." White wrote back and Black heaved a sigh of relief.

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✰Prologue: Black and White✰

► 10:20 PM

Black looked at the seating arrangement and went to her seat. She sighed as she looked at her friends who were sitting further away from her. "Damn this," she thought as she looked at the girls who were sitting around her,"I don't even know anyone around me." She sighed again and tried to interact with those nearby, hoping that she would be able to at least find a person or two to keep her entertained through the school semester.

"Hi, I'm White." A girl who sat diagonally in front of her turned around to introduce herself. She seems like a serious type of girl and she has an accent! Black widened her eyes in shock as she introduced herself. "I'm Black." Neither Black nor White tried to make any further conversations and in the blink of an eye, a week went by and the class committee was selected.

White was selected as the class head and that was what caught Black's attention. Black had the mindset that knowing someone with some sort of authority would make her life much better and more interesting so she made up her mind to befriend White. Her chance came when both the table partners of Black and White were not able to turn up for a period of time.

Black moved up to the empty table beside White and started talking to her whenever she can. Little by little, she learnt more about White and realised that both girls had many similarities as well as differences. Slowly, Black's english started to improve but she also started to stutter whenever she was speaking to White. What's wrong with me? Black would sometimes wonder at night when she tried to figure out the reason behind her stuttering.

It took close to half a year for Black and White to form a strong bond between each other and slowly, Black started to change.

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Tagboard

► 9:55 PM

I have put up a tagboard!
Yay!
Use the arrows to navigate to locate it :D
Muahahaha

Hey you

► Sunday, January 15, 2012 | 1:21 PM

How are you?
We haven't really talked since the last time you sent me a message.
Then again, it's not that we had even chatted ever since we've graduated.
I'm sorry that I didn't reply. I didn't know how to.
It was filled with so much emotions that any reply I sent would have seem so unreal.
I do miss you but it's just not as much as you miss me, I guess.

I've written a collection of stories. The lives of Black and White.
We are starring in it. It's about our lives after all.
I've always felt that you are an angel sent from heaven so you should know which character you are.
It will be featuring the special moments we had for two years, or close.
Although I can't remember every little details, I do remember those significant ones.

And hopefully, through that, you'll realize why things change so much between us.
Then again, that's only if you read this.
I'm hopefully you don't.
I can't remember how you managed to find my blog 4 years ago but I'm hoping that you'll never find this one.
Or maybe I do want you to read it.

I don't know.

A song or close

► Saturday, January 14, 2012 | 11:19 PM

I miss the days
When it was just you and I
I miss the times you sat with me
Whenever I cry

You were there during my happiest moments
There during my darkest times
You praise me when I did well
And hug me tight when I wasn't fine

But I know I never was the friend I should have been
And I made promises I never meant to keep.
(I'm sorry.)

As the days go on, we were drifting from each other.
As the days go on and I know that I've changed
The further apart we are, the clearer it should seems.
No longer exists the word Forever

You were an angel sent to me
Revealed the side of me I didn't see
You were the force urging me on
But now it seems a part of me is gone

I know you always provide a listening ear
But I couldn't face my biggest fear
I know i've never done my part
But when I say I miss you, it does come from the heart

And I know I never was the friend I should have been
And I made promises I never meant to keep.
(I'm sorry.)

As the days go on, we were drifting from each other.
As the days go on and I know that I've changed
The further apart we are, the clearer it should seems.
No longer exists the word Forever.

(Copyrighted! I'll sue you if you copy this without permission!)

Theme song for Black and White ( A new ~~real-life~~ story written by yours truly )

HAPPY (belated) NEW YEAR!

► Thursday, January 12, 2012 | 11:37 PM

Hello! I am back back back
Did you miss me? Don't answer that since we all know the answer. (It's obviously yes)
Since I've been gone for quite some time, I feel that I should update you, my precious readers, on what has been going on in my really busy life. However, before that, I shall share some good news with you!
Oh in case you want to know why I've changed my blog template (again) that's cause I'm still more comfortable using this than the other one which I had. Yup.

Anyway,

#1.
Drum roll please. Brmmmdrmmbrmmmmm
My dad FINALLY ordered a drumset! It's an electronic one and it'll be coming on the 20th. I'm so friggin' excited. *runs around the room screaming with joy* So the stuffs in my room have been moved to make way for it. Now i'll have two muscial instrument in my room. A drumset and an organ. Yay!

#2.
Drum roll once again. Brmmmdrmmbrmmmmm. ( I ctrl c and ctrl v that :P )
My cousin has given birth! Whoo! I'm an aunt again. I can't remember if it's a guy or a girl. I shall ask my parents tomorrow. I hope that my parents will take photos for me to see when they visit my cousin tomorrow. I have rehearsal for an upcoming concert on sunday so I can't visit . ): Nonetheless, congratulations to my cousin!

#3.
Drum roll once more. Brmmmdrmmbrmmmmm
My dear friend, who shall not be named, has finally gotten the girl that he has fallen deeply in love with. *cheers* After many days of doubting himself and wondering what the other party really feels, his wish has finally come true today. *claps claps claps* I'm so proud of him. *sniffs* Treasure it yea? May it last for a very long time.

Okay enough with the news. I shall tell you more about what has been happening to me.

Firstly, I've found a new love. Oh, to be exact, it's two new loves. Hey!Say!Jump and NYC boys. I first learnt about some of the members through a Japanese drama and after listening to their songs for quite some time, I fell in love with HSJ. Two of the members belong in NYC boys too thus I'm a fan of NYC boys as well. I shan't talk too much about them because I can go on and on about it. My love for them is the same as that for Big Time Rush and sadly, all three groups are unreachable cause Singapore does not have enough fans. (Hence, Singapore is so hot. )

Secondly, I've been giving tuition to kids. It's really really hard but it's a good way to train my patience. I've been helping my dad to sort out his work-related stuffs. Somehow, through all those random works, I've managed to earn a bit every week. It's actually very little but I don't spend much so it's fine. Oh and I've used some of the money which to buy myself a white converse watch which cost me $94 bucks. $100 to be exact because my mother didn't give me the change when I returned her the money. It hurts when I paid for it but I know it'll be the second watch which I'll treasure a lot. My blue adidas watch is spoilt and need a new strap. *sigh* I hope that it can be repaired soon since it's the watch that has accompanied me through my secondary and junior college life.

Lastly, I've signed up for drum lessons. I've also been learning my piano and driving theory. It's really a pain (I'm referring to the theory) but I shall persevere on. I've started learning how to draw my own characters. It goes back to the basics so I'm trying to not lose my determination. I took up swimming lessons too. With my mum, my aunt and my cousin. My cousin asked me to join her yoga class so that we can both go back to school with hot bodies. I can't imagine myself 8 months from now but I shall try my best to get rid of those fats. I've been meeting my friend to swim together too so I really hope that all those fats will poof soon. Haha.

Okay, that's it. This is one long post. I shall update again soon.
Hope that I have not bore you to death. Good night!

A whole new beginning (i hope)

► Friday, January 6, 2012 | 11:17 PM

I'm going to stop regretting and this time, make my life worth living for.