Well well, how are you and you and you. Oh and you too.
Anyway, if you have noticed the title of my post, you will somehow guess that I want to share my opinion on something and that is fans.


Okay, before ranting. Here's something more boring. My life.

Good news first.
My e-pal has replied. *cheers* I really thought that she had forgotten about me and sometimes, I wonder if something had happened to her. Then, she replied and my guess was right, she was busy with her studies. *cries in relief* Nah, I didn't cry. However, I sort of gave up waiting for her e-mail that when she sent me one, it took me close to 4hours to check the new e-mail and realised that it was from her. I hope she will do well for her tests.

I'm making progress in Japanese. I've managed to learn Hiragana but I'm still far from being able to read something. I hope I will be able to master it someday. It's really useful since many Japanese are coming to Singapore to study and start businesses. I can even be a translator for magazines or shows some day. How useful is that?

Bad news now.
I'm getting my A level results next week. I'm really worried.

Okay, I don't have much to update for now. All the best to those who are taking their results too. Ganbatte!

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Sorry, the title is totally random. I just happened to be listening to this song title "Magic Power" by Hey!Say!Jump and I used one of the phrases for the title. Yep.

Anyway, How are you people out there? Are you having fun with your life? Life is short, enjoy it more.
I went swimming today and I've sort of mastered the art of staying afloat. No, I can't tread water. I am learning how to. After that me and my cousin went out for some girls' time. It ended earlier than expected because her friend's car had some problems and she had to go to his/her rescue. It was fun, nonetheless.

Oh. I had a dream this morning. I dreamt that I was chasing after someone who stole my lunch and suddenly I remembered that I had to take my results. So the settings changed and I was in the classroom. Mrs Goh was giving out the results slip. It felt so real then. She said that she had to show the results on the screen and my name was announced. I had A, A, A for three subjects but due to my poor class participation grade, it all dropped to a B. I was feeling so guilty for not paying attention in class. (Why the heck was class participation used in the first place?) Then she showed my maths result. I GOT A FREAKIN' D. Then I ran out of the class and cried and I woke up cause my maid was knocking on the door to wake me up.

It felt so real and I'm kind of worried, tbh. I remember dreaming about my O levels and I got exactly what I dreamt. Even my friends who were in my dream got the exact same points as what I've dreamt. However, that felt more realistic than this latest dream because it was held in the hall. So I hope it's just me worrying too much.

Oh, I smell food. Until next time then. Goodbye.
p/s: here's a quote which I came across. I find it quite meaningful.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.- Henry David Thoreau

Hello, here I am again.
Before I start going on and on about random issues, I shall wish everyone a Happy Valentines Day
If you're single, it is okay. I am too. We'll both find the fated one soon enough. You should just be patient.
If you are happily attached, *shifts my seat closer* come, tell me about your date. *nudges you*
Actually, I'm not really interested. I'm serious! However, you can still tell me if you want. I like to listen to stories.

I actually miss spending Vday in school. I miss getting chocolates from people. *sigh*

Anyway, I've been googling to find out more about my favourite boy group, HSJ. I feel like a stalker but it's normal for a fan to want to find out more about her idols right? Of course, I've gone and check out the school some of the boys are currently studying in and it caused me reflect for a bit. Being someone famous really means sacrificing a lot. I read a post about the school (Click here to read it) and it was like wow, where's the freedom man? I know being a star means that one will lose a percentage of his or her freedom but this much? It seems unbearable. There are eyes everywhere, CCTVs and guards monitoring your behaviours. *shivers* I do envy these people, being famous and all but to be noticed to this extent, somehow I feel kind of fortunate that I am plain ol' me. However, we can't deny that these attention are needed because of who they are. it's important to make sure that the reputations of these stars are not ruined and that they are safe at all time. The possibility of them getting into trouble or danger is quite high after all.

BUT not allowed to eat snacks? This is really sad.

Okay, I'm done with what I want to say, for now. I should be getting ready to go out.
Once again, Happy valentines day.
This is Lanxin, signing off.

The title says it all.

Well, I've ran out of titles for posts.
Anyway, here is yours truly with yet another update of my not so interesting life.
I shall share some good news with you first.

1. I've passed my BTT. Yayyyeee
2. My electronic drums are here. WHOO.
3. I am going on a cruise trip with my friends. Yayywhoo

Well, BTT was surprisingly easy. I finished it within 10mins and we were given 50mins. I am waiting for my new specs to be made before I take my PDL and start my driving lessons.

Okay so yea, my drums are here. I love it so much but so far I have not played much yet since my dad is always hogging it. We should get my room sound-proofed. I have a feeling we are disturbing the poor neighbours.

Oh. Does everyone know that we are getting our results on the 2nd of March? Well, now you do. It's arriving so soon. I am really nervous. My friends and I are going on a cruise trip on the 21st of March. Well, if I don't return, you should know why.

This feels so weird. I'm using IE on my dad's com cause mine died.

Anyway, my e-pal has disappeared. I wonder if she's okay. Maybe she is busy with her work or maybe she has forgotten about me. I feel so sad. I have to survive on my own while learning Japanese now. I am one loyal friend so I shall not go and search for new e-pals. Actually, I am just lazy. It's not easy hunting for e-pals because I can't be sure that they will reply. I do not want someone who keeps asking for my pictures either.

Sigh. I am so tired. I should take a nap.

This is yours truly signing off.

So yea, here I am again.
It hasn't been a good week I must say.
I'm starting to have nightmares lately and it's kind of irritating.
I really need my sleep.
I was late for work today and that was not good at all.

Stress is piling up.
The fact that I am getting my results soon has caused me to feel weird all over.
Plus the unsettled cruise trip.
It actually showed me how fragile a friendship can be.
I feel like plugging in and just spend my time doing nothing but listening to music.
However, I can't do that now. I have my BTT tomorrow.

I am tired.
Goodnight.

Here I am again.
Today is a pretty sad day for my family and I as it's my granddad's 6th year death anniversary.
I shall post a letter to him, although I know he will never be able to read it.
Unless there's a computer at wherever he is and a translator.
I doubt he can read english.
So here I go.

Dear Grandpa,
How are you? Are you enjoying life at wherever you are now?
Did you come to visit us now and then? I really miss you.
Do you know that I'm currently sleeping in the room which you left peacefully in?
Those adults always wonder why I dare to sleep in that room.
I think it's ridiculous. I feel more at ease and less lonely whenever I stay up till the morning.
However that does not mean that you should appear yea? Just saying.

Anyway, do you remember the times when you stay in the old folks home when I was younger? I always love to visit you as I could run around the home, exploring every corners. You would be enjoying the coffee and the pringles we've brought. My dad would buy food for your friend at the other bed and the adults would talk for hours. I remember standing on the steps, blowing bubbles from the bottle I had bought.

 Do you remember that on every CNY my dad and I would go to the old folks home to pick you up. I would appear with make up and two pigtails and I would be wearing the clothes I've wore to perform that morning. You would ask us about the family and I would stare at your golden tooth in amazement as you talk. We would then celebrate CNY as a family. It was always one of the happiest moments for me.

Time flies and suddenly you were diagnosed with cancer. Things became worse and you demanded for your kids to stay in my house. You slept in this very room and then, you slowly lost conscious. The thing is, I adapt to my environment very quickly. I was growing up, I was at a rebellious age. You stayed unconscious for so long that I thought you would always be there, it's just that you would continue sleeping. I was wrong.

On the 13th day of CNY, I remember walking in your room to take a book. I took a look at you and walked off. My parents had always told me that I should call you even if you were unconscious. I didn't but it did not occur to me that it would be the last time for me to see you alive. I remember going next door to play on the piano and a few minutes later, my aunt cried. You are gone.

Did you know that till today, I am still filled with regrets for not saying goodbye? I still tear every year when I recall how unfilial I was. However, nothing will bring you back.

So I hope that wherever you are, you will know that none of us have forgotten about you. I miss the days I've spent with you and I always will.

Lots of loves,
Lan Xin