It's 2plus am. The most appropriate time to sit back and reflect. Since it's new Year eve, I might as well write one for it.

I must say, these two years haven't been the best for me. I've changed and yet stayed the same inside. I might admit, there were times when I've lied, times when I've thought of doing the silliest and stupidest things, times which I'm ashamed of, for betraying myself and for not putting in my all. Times which I regret and can't seem to face it yet.

without the help of many people, I might not have pulled through. I've always imagined everyone having this little devil inside them and at the deepest darkest moments, the devil takes full control of the people and crazy things happen. Well, maybe, my little devil would have appeared but thanks to those around me, it didn't.

Families. Helped me lots. My mum, my dad, my Sis and even my cousins who secretly supported me in one way or another. I can never show how grateful I am to them. Constantly loving me, supporting me and giving me what I need, even before I asked for it.

Friends. Seriously speaking, I didn't believe much in friendship ages ago. I didn't believe in asking for help or telling someone my problems. I thought I would, after promising someone but I couldn't change. Surprisingly, there's someone out there whom I've confided in. I know I may seem annoying at times and crazy and there are times when that someone didn't seem to believe what I said. Still, that person helped me a lot, through my jc life. Whenever I am down or lonely or troubled or bored or really needed help with my work, I would seem to go bother that person. I must say, there are definitely times when I'm cheered up as well as times when I cried while staring at whatever it was written. We don't talk much but somehow, i think, i've told him more things than i've said to anyone. I must say, he's really an amazing friend and hopefully, I'll find friends as awesome (or even better) as he is.

Of course, there are others who cheered me up along the way, random smses from juniors, from ogms and from my friends made me smile or cried and let everything out. From the first day in sch to my prelim results. I realized that I'm not alone.

But I felt that I've lost a precious friend too and it hurts, I really miss her. There are gaps widening between me and some of my pals as well, mindsets are changing, my circle of friends is starting to change but I don't want that to happen.

Well, 2011 is really a hectic year but life goes on, I'm dead tired so things aren't going to make sense any longer. Happy 2012 people. My new year resolution shall be : do what you think is right and live with no regrets. Way to go.

Peace out.

Happy birthday dexun!
My reliable friend whom I'm not so close to but still looks out for me. Hahahaha!
If I have a boyfriend next time, I want him to be like you! Not that I'm falling for you.
Seriously, my class guys should learn from you and your gang. I'm sorry Azmi, if you're reading this but I'm referring to your friends. I have been touched a few times by how gentleman they are.
Since last year, I've been greatly impressed by them.

On the other hand, my mum reminded me that our class guys aren't so bad. Haha! I can't remember praising them but yea, can't deny. From normal class stuffs to class outings to grad night to those miscellaneous fun and joy. The guys have helped me more than I can ever asked for. *Japanese bow* Arigatou. I've had fun with you guys around. :D Thank you.

Merry christmas everybody!
It's this time of the year again.
Sadly, I didn't have any major parties this time round. It was just a mini gathering and I was bored when my phone battery died. It was ironic cause I got a portable battery only a few hours ago but I had to charge it so I couldn't bring it out. It is very rare for it to die so to say the truth, I seldom need it but it was on my wishlist nonetheless.

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Okay so now I'm back, my friend reminded me about my dead blog and I remembered saving this as a draft, so I'll post this today.

Anyway, my parents used to play secret Santa, like they'll get the presents and hide it somewhere, only to put it on our beds when we were asleep on the 24. How cute was that? Anyway, both me and my Sis are old enough not to have this kind of stuffs now( actually it's just me but my sister has no sense of humor hence she doesn't believe in Santa and no longer plays along since she was in upper pri. Sad girl. I played dumb for the presents.

So my parents bought presents again this year on the 24th and my Sis was taking a nap, my mum then showed me how she would sneak in the presents every year. Haha! Since my Sis was sleeping, she took the chance to place the present beside her. Santa cane early apparently. My mum didn't want to wake up in the middle of the night anymore. My mum kept urging me to sleep and when I walked into my room, guess what? My beloved stitch was holding my present on the bed. Haha!

My parents are really adorable and I love them so much. I hope I can create such wonderful memories for my kids in the future. Regardless whether they are birthdays, children days, father days, mother days, christmas, or even valentines! I would love to do Halloween but Singapore doesn't seem to do treat or trick ):

Ahwell. So long people. I'll be back before 2012.
So that I can post a 2011 post(:

I've never felt so jaded~
It's like the time has never faded~
I wish I won't feel so dead~
As I toss and turn on my bed~

I'm bored. Like really bored.
So I started rhyming words and wrote a song.
I'm kidding, about writing a song but I came up with those four lines at the start.
I should start writing songs again since I wrote a few after my Os.

I'm rotting and it's only December.
On the bright side, I'm going to taiwan on the 14th.
Don't miss me.
Oh and I started drawing again.
Still need to improve my skills and I need to start drawing on my own, instead of looking at other pics to copy.
Not the paper over picture kind of copy but the stare at computer screen or iPhone screen and draw kind of copy.
Am i making sense?
Anyway, even my copying skills sucks. I'll show you an example.

This is what I was looking at
No scrape that. My phone doesn't want to cooperate now. So I'll just upload onto flickr. Yay. Goodnight.