It's 2plus am. The most appropriate time to sit back and reflect. Since it's new Year eve, I might as well write one for it.

I must say, these two years haven't been the best for me. I've changed and yet stayed the same inside. I might admit, there were times when I've lied, times when I've thought of doing the silliest and stupidest things, times which I'm ashamed of, for betraying myself and for not putting in my all. Times which I regret and can't seem to face it yet.

without the help of many people, I might not have pulled through. I've always imagined everyone having this little devil inside them and at the deepest darkest moments, the devil takes full control of the people and crazy things happen. Well, maybe, my little devil would have appeared but thanks to those around me, it didn't.

Families. Helped me lots. My mum, my dad, my Sis and even my cousins who secretly supported me in one way or another. I can never show how grateful I am to them. Constantly loving me, supporting me and giving me what I need, even before I asked for it.

Friends. Seriously speaking, I didn't believe much in friendship ages ago. I didn't believe in asking for help or telling someone my problems. I thought I would, after promising someone but I couldn't change. Surprisingly, there's someone out there whom I've confided in. I know I may seem annoying at times and crazy and there are times when that someone didn't seem to believe what I said. Still, that person helped me a lot, through my jc life. Whenever I am down or lonely or troubled or bored or really needed help with my work, I would seem to go bother that person. I must say, there are definitely times when I'm cheered up as well as times when I cried while staring at whatever it was written. We don't talk much but somehow, i think, i've told him more things than i've said to anyone. I must say, he's really an amazing friend and hopefully, I'll find friends as awesome (or even better) as he is.

Of course, there are others who cheered me up along the way, random smses from juniors, from ogms and from my friends made me smile or cried and let everything out. From the first day in sch to my prelim results. I realized that I'm not alone.

But I felt that I've lost a precious friend too and it hurts, I really miss her. There are gaps widening between me and some of my pals as well, mindsets are changing, my circle of friends is starting to change but I don't want that to happen.

Well, 2011 is really a hectic year but life goes on, I'm dead tired so things aren't going to make sense any longer. Happy 2012 people. My new year resolution shall be : do what you think is right and live with no regrets. Way to go.

Peace out.