Sometimes you look at them wearing their uniforms
and you tell yourself
that should have been mine
i could have made it in
so close yet so far
don't get me wrong, i love my school
but i could have done better
having score that can make it in but choosing not to is one thing
but not getting the score and thus didn't try to appeal is another
i want to stop being the person in the second category
choosing a course you want to take is not like choosing a school you want to go to, i realised
the stress comes to you way before you even take the exams
do i really want to study psychology? and try to aim for med?
is that really what i want?
if not, what do i really want to do?
i don't know
i really don't
then you start feeling loserish about yourself
especially with bad results and stuffs
the morale is so much lower.
then you try to talk to people
and they push you away
can't blame them, they have their own lives.
and then you clam up
this is life.
full of regrets
full of hardtomake decisions
full of fear
full of uncertainty
